Willing Terror Part 2.

                             Willing Terror 

Part 2

This is a continuation of Part 1. Thank you for reading..

I raised my hands and looked directly at them and just like that the scene that  I was dreaming about looked like it got ripped apart, like it was some background made of paper, and my dads living room came into focus. I was still staring at my hands, I could hear the rapid beating of my heart and with each deep, heavy thump I started breathing in slower and slower. My hands started to, what I could describe as disappearing, my palms were becoming see through and as the set of hands that were in front of me became more faint, I could see that my arms were now by my side as I lay normally. To my realization I could not move, of course the thought and images of that thing holding my arm came rushing through my head and a fierce vibration or white noise feeling immediately covered every part of my body. I wish it would just stop I had enough of this shit and fear turned into anger, I was literally angry just pure rage coming over me, I wanted to fight whatever was causing this. As soon as the anger and the thought of fighting came to mind, in a split second everything became quiet. I was again alone in this silent dream hell. I was facing the wall where my dad had his couch, I tried shoving my girlfriend and yelling “help, babe, wake up!” but of course nothing came out. While I was trying to wake up I started to hear faint coughing. Everything was silent except this distant couching and gasping. I tried to close my eyes but it was useless they would not shut. I looked around and I saw this fucking thing sitting on the couch it was pitch black, it looked like it was covered in charcoal. Its feet were splintered at the end of them, its thin legs also looked like it was made of black burnt wood pieces or something. Its head was what terrified me the most it looked cracked or broken with faint amber light coming through the cracks, It wasn't facing me, it was facing in the direction of my son. It kept coughing and gasping for air, its breaths were really rough like a horrible smokers throat. I screamed at it trying to get its attention, it flinched a little turning what I could only guess was its ear towards me. I yelled at it and and told it to leave, with all my might I tried to move but couldn’t. He didn't react or anything like it couldn't even hear me. This was all extremely real, I could swear if I tried hard enough I would be able to move or do something. All of a sudden my heart drops, it raises its thin, disgustingly burnt arm and points it at my son, I am literally scared to death. It goes to stand up, Im screaming and trying to kick stand up do something. For some reason I feel the faint emptiness in the back of my head, the same feeling I got going into sleep paralysis. I start concentrating on it trying to get it bigger. I don't really understand how this is happening since I am already in sleep paralysis, am I going deeper into this state of, I guess, being? The feeling starts to get bigger as this thing starts to advance towards my son. The feeling inside me started to grow, I think this thing could sense it, as the feeling grew stronger, the thing would walk slower, taking its paces slower. 

Movie: Insidious Part 1.

Finally I could feel it all over my body and in one swing motion with all my strength I try to move my arm and it shoots up. To my amazement I sit straight up and now Im staring directly at this thing! I yell at it one more time and I could hear my voice it echoes extremely loud I feel the whole apartment shake. It subsides and this thing turns and faces me. It had no face, It was just a round black hole that looked like a dying camp fire with the tips of some the splinters that made his whole body glowing. The best way I could explain is when you light a stick or log and you blow the flame out, there is this glow of the burned area and as you blow on it it gets brighter. I could see it breathing though all the little burnt out amber lights were slowly getting brighter and then dimmer. It was moving its head like it was taking in every detail of my face, I could smell it, it was like pure smoke, a burning sensation was filling my lungs until I couldn't take it anymore and I looked away and gasped for any fresh air not poisoned by this thing. As I took a deep breath in my eyes were watery and I turned quickly around, knowing I would have to face this thing again, slowly I turned my head and it was gone. My body suddenly felt extremely heavy, it felt like my core that allowed me to sit up was straining from all the weight and slowly I started to fall back down on back until I was completely flat and thats when I heard an ear splitting screech and my eyes shot open.

Thank god I was finally awake, the nightmare was over and I could go on and sleep. Of course I couldn’t, or didn't want to, I stood up and walked over to where this thing was sitting down at, examining it I don’t remember why, I mean thinking for one second that it was actually real makes me feel silly now. I guess I was just looking for some kind of evidence, these sleep paralysis episodes felt so real that maybe they could manipulate reality in some way. Which again feels like really silly again thinking about this now, but I was just straight out of sleep and wasn't really thinking straight.  

This is the first account of me ever being able to put myself into sleep paralysis, and also the first time I can remember ever being able to move in the frightening hell that is my sleep paralysis.  By far the most terrifying, I think because I didn’t personally felt in danger but I did feel like it was going to harm my son. Again its only a dream and it might seem sill to feel these emotions but when your in the moment of sleep paralysis it feels extremely real, the thought of this is just a dream doesn't cross your mind. Thank you everybody for reading.

Willing Terror (Part 1)

Willing Terror

My choice

For as long as I can remember these events were out of my control. Like I have said before I do not really look into these events I let others make their conclusions. Well a reason I do not look into this stuff is I feel like ignoring it is like a dam, holding everything back. I have a strong feeling that if I did open up to the paranormal or ghosts, whatever you want to call it, it would all rush in. I have eerie feeling that I would be seeing, hearing and experiencing way more than the little bit I deal with now. I do not have any interest in contacting anything out of this world, and I feel like I may have the ability and really don't want it. Its like the little bit that I feel, like when I cannot be alone because I feel like someone is watching me, or when I am going to sleep and I hear screams sometimes that shoot me out of sleep. I feel like these are just the little bit coming through the cracks of my so called dam. Wether these are good spirits or not, I really do not want anything to do with the so called paranormal, if you believe in it or not. I still find the whole concept fascinating don't get me wrong, but I wish that thats just what it was stories and videos, for me personally. I thought it was appropriate to start off that way because this blog is about how I did indulge in the whole sleep paralysis thing once. I will never do that again. This is the first time I found out I had the ability to put myself into sleep paralysis. 

We were staying at my dads for while. I was trying to save money to get our own apartment and be on our own. We were there probably about a month or so. We didn't have internet or anything, I didn't have wifi or my video games so all my usual daily distractions were gone. I decided to try to make new distractions which was a bad idea. I started reading and learning about the whole paranormal realm, I decided that something that fascinated me would be a good way to pass the time and I would learn something new in the mean time. Well I started to play with the notion that this was real, the whole spirit plane and psychics and being able to communicate with the spirits was an actual possible thing. When I came across something explaining how to astro project. Basically out of body experiences, well on this one article it explained a few steps on how to achieve and control your dreams. You can fly on command and the dream world around you is up to your manipulation, lucid dreaming they called it. Well of course this sounded really cool so I started to think about this all day. 

Night came fairly quick it was my day off so I had just spent the day with the family. We made our beds on the living room floor, thats where we were sleeping for the time being. I had almost forgot about this whole control your dreams thing, until I started to fall asleep I was drifting in and out of consciousness when I saw what looked like black vines start going up the wall behind the tv that was in the living room. It kinda shocked me cause I stood up and focus more on the wall and it was gone. Stupid shadows I told myself and just laughed at my self for being startled of innocent shadows I thought were coming from the little slits of light breaking through the blinds. Well I am fully awake now since the startle got a little bit of adrenaline going through me and I decide to play on my phone which was a desperate move on my part because with no wifi and just cell service it was slow as  fuck. I unlock my phone and the first thing that pops up is that article I was reading about lucid dreaming, which I found strange. I did not recall leaving the article up or even reading it for a couple of hours. Anyways I was bored, no one else was up, my girlfriend was asleep next to me and my two kids were sleeping on the couch next to us. I looked at the article and said what the hell lets try this shit. So determined to control my own dreams, I began.

So I began to read the instructions and did as they said. I laid on my back with arms on my side. Started to take deep breaths in and out, laying there motionless. I started to feel like an itch everywhere on my body, it wasn't all at once just various different parts, like a little itch on my elbow or knee, then thigh. The article said this would happen, I guess it was the bodies way of seeing if I was really asleep or some shit like that. The article said to fight to urge to scratch the itch and it would slowly go away. I was laying for about 30 min just still and I started feeling stupid for trying it. I decided to give up and get comfortable to sleep and decided that I would still try the other steps it described. The article stated once you were sleeping or dreaming to try and look at your hands. Whatever you were doing to look down or bring your hands up to your face and this would enable you to be able to control your dreams, and that they would become extremely vivid. So I began to drift into sleep, I dreamt for a while until all of a sudden I started hearing myself like an echo, “look at your hands” over and over again. Until my hands started to slowly raise and as soon as I seen my hands everything just swooshed into clarity in a snap. It was no longer the normal fuzzy dreams I mostly have, everything was really vivd, clear and kind of real. This all happened in what felt like a second. What happened directly after that is what still weirds me out.

As soon as my hands come into focus and everything just clicked clear. I heard what sounded like a really low growl, I know it seems a little over played or cliche but thats I heard I mean I was still dreaming so I guess anything was possible. Any way I heard something like that and then for just an instant these pair of red eyes came into focus, as I saw them my hands became see through kinda foggy exposing these eyes more.  I wasn't scared or anything it happened so fast I didn't really have time to react or anything its just something that I remember and I started slowly being able to I guess tell myself what to do in my dreams. This went on for the rest of the night until I woke up in the morning. 

That day was pretty normal, I remember being really tired at night after work and all that, but it was to the point of exhaustion. The more I laid in bed the more I felt like I was being drained. I went to sleep quickly I don’t know how long it was into my deep sleep when I started experiencing the feeling I always get before going into sleep paralysis. Its a very difficult feeling to describe but it starts, for me, in the back of my head its kind of like a pulsating feeling like a light headedness but just in the back of your head, it travels down my spine until it envelopes me. Sometimes its so quick I do not even realize I am in it until I try to move. As soon as this feeling got a hold of me I knew what was coming so I decided to play with it a little I woke up and it was dark everyone was still asleep. So I laid there  and tried to recreate the feeling and It started really faintly but it grew as I concentrated more. I had the whole image of what I was facing though this whole time and then all of a sudden I felt my whole body tingling and as soon as that happened I knew I was not going to be able to move pretty soon but I knew I was asleep already, I don't know if that makes sense. I raised my hands to see them and I couldn’t, shit I said, did I wait too long to try it. I tried again with my left hand since I was laying down on my right arm with my hand turned down so I could see my wrist. I was still in the living room facing the wall and thats all I could see. So I tried again to put my hand up so I could see it and turn my right hand so that I was facing the palms of my hands, but again couldn’t, I was about to give up and hold my breath to snap out of it, but I noticed a pressure on my wrist. I tried so hard to look behind me but couldn’t. I tried to to move my arm again, and as I tried to raise it I again felt the pressure. “What the fuck is that” I told myself I have never felt anything like that before. One last time, with everything I had I tried pulling my hand up and it would just budge a little, I looked down as far as I could with just my eyes since I couldn't move my head, and then I saw it, just a glimpse, but I fucking saw it. Wrapped around my wrist was a hand, seeing it I could now feel the individual fingers on my wrist, I was freaking out kind of panicking I….could feel it. It wasn't big enough to be an adults hand but it was little like a kids hand or medium I guess. Once I saw it I started shaking and yelling and the intense vibration or tingling feeling just devoured me, more powerful than I have ever felt. I yelled “Let Go!” and in that second just like that the tingling stopped and everything went quiet. The ringing noise that came with the vibration subsided and out of the calm soothing silence I hear a raspy but sorta high pitched voice whisper “no”. I flinched and was more terrified than ever. I calmed down and again in my head yelled “leave me alone”, again everything went quiet  and I waited like prey at the mercy of the hunter. Nothing, not a whisper or feeling, nothing, I was relieved but still in the sleep paralysis episode. I still couldn't move so I tried calming down and started thinking about other things until eventually I just started dreaming. It was normal dreams I was flying or some generic shit like that. I felt the tingly feeling and without thinking about it I raised my hands and looked directly at them and just like that the scene that I was dreaming about looked liked it got ripped apart, like it was some background made of paper, and my dads living room came into focus. 

To Be Continued….. 

Ill end it here ladies and gentlemen I don’t really like having my blogs be too long just for the sake of someone losing interest because of it being too long. The 2nd half will be a lot shorter, but its the most terrifying thing I have experienced so keep an eye out for it tomorrow. Thank you for reading if you enjoy it please share with friends or Family. Thank you for giving it a read everybody, I will continue this one tomorrow. 

Missing Boot

Missing Boot

    This happened at the same house we were staying in for a couple of months, the one I mentioned in the other blog. This has nothing to do with sleep paralysis like my other blogs but it just something strange that happened to me and my girlfriend in that house. Something quick it won't be as long as my other blogs. 

     

    Well me and my girlfriend were going to have the whole day to ourselves her grandparents were taking our kids out to watch a movie or something, and we were going to go on a little date. This was pretty awesome since we didn't get much alone time together. So we planned out our night and decided to go walk around the mall and then have dinner at red lobster, her favorite place. Well our little date was finished and we decided to go back to the house. Full and bloated we waddled into the house and noticed no one was home, we looked around and nothing. We called to see how everything was going with the kids and they were all about the go in and watch a movie. Knowing we were alone but to bloated to do anything sexual we sank into the nearest couch we kicked off our shoes and put them under the living room table by our feet because of the dogs. Her grandma owns like 5 little yappie dogs that love taking shit and putting them under the bed and couch, so we were guarding our shoes but still relaxing. We watched tv for a little bit and I got bored of the tv show we were watching I forgot what it was about. I went to sit on the computer directly next to the couch we were sitting in. 

  The only thing between the living room and dining area where the computer was, was a big book shelf. It wasn't really full so you could still see through it, at some points the shelved would be completely empty. So there was some visibility but not a lot, I could definitely see a person if they were walking or sitting in the living room though. Well I started browsing the internet nothing special and I wanted to stretch my legs and get some air. I called my girlfriend over and asked her if she wanted to go walk around the park for a bit. She gave me the really, physical activity, look. I told her yeah just me and her walking around the park. 

As we were talking I was about to say something when we heard a click and a second later the living room light went off. We just stood there like what the hell. I told her I had heard it click right before it went off, she said she did too. As if someone stood there pulled the light chain and turned the living room light off, we were alone in the house. She slowly walked over there and I told her the light must have burnt out and thats what the little click sound we heard was. She told me she was going to pull the bead chain to see if it turned back on A part of me just wanted to leave it at that, the bulb burnt out, now lets go on our way. Something told me it was more than that, she walked over slowly, as if it were alive and if she moved slow enough it would lash out and bite, I had a feeling she too wanted the light to be burnt out. She pulled the chain and *click* the light turns on and floods the room. She looks back at me with a "Are you seeing this" face. I said "holy shit" and just sat there smiling like what the hell just happened, dumbfounded.  I guess we both didn't want to make a big deal out of it we just left it at that. We decided to go to the park and we began to get ready. I went and put my shoes on and went into the kitchen to get something to drink. I seen her scurrying around looking for something. I asked her if she misplaced her purse or phone or something. She told me her boot was missing. I went and looked under the living room table and sure enough it was gone. I told her that it would happened if she wasn't careful, the dogs love shoes. So we began looking for it under the couch under the beds in the different rooms, kitchen next the the food bowls, doggy doors anywhere the dogs could've taken the boot. We could not find it anywhere, I walked by the bathroom a thousand times and in the different rooms, even started asking the little dogs where they took the boot to. It was no where to be found. I told her they must have taken it to the back yard and to just get another pair. I walked in one last time into her grandmas room just stood in the door way looking around the floor and nothing. For whatever reason I looked around and her boot caught my eye. It was on top of a fucking treadmill. I could've believe it, no dog could've put it up there, no way. 

Im 6 ft the treadmill was folded not laid out to run on, but folded and it reached a little above my shoulder. There was literally no explanation on how the boot got there. I called over to my girlfriend and without wanting to touch the boot I pointed to where it was. She gasped and jokingly slapped my shoulder telling me to cut it out, that I had put it up there. I looked at her and said I swear to god that I didn't touch it. I put it on everything, I told her that I didn't touch it before and I wasn't going to be touching it now "go get your own boot" I said. We were still going wtf in our heads kind of just laughing it off. We could not think of how the boot got from under the table and onto the folded up treadmill. She jokingly said it was the little girl that died there. I told her to shut up not wanting to think about it, knowing I would be back hours later to go to sleep in the same house. 

   Overall I thought it was really weird I mean what are the odds a poltergeist living there in the house. I remember reading somewhere that poltergeists weren't actually ghosts but beings from another dimension or something like that. I mean if anybody has an explanation to how this happened I would like to know. Neither of touched our shoes since we took them off. I mean it never occurred to us to check them right after the light got turned off, someone pulled the chain we could here it clearly. Anyways yea thats just another little something that happened to me at that house pertaining to the whole haunted thing. I mean they did tell me a bunch of other stuff that would happen but I never really saw it with my or was there so I won't go into too much detail. If anyone wants another little short blog like this one just explaining all the events they would tell me let me know in the comments or message me. I would love to share but since it isn't really a life experience of I mine I won't tell you guys, of course if you message me letting me know you would like to know about the weird stuff they would say happened at this house comment or message me. 

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The Closet

The Shadows

Closet 

This event happened to me when we had just moved into my

girlfriends grandmas house. It was said to be haunted by a little girl and a man. I personally never experienced or dealt with either. They would say that you could hear a little girl running laughing, stuff like that. There was also said to be a man in the house but will always be spotted out in the back yard. I mean this was just the overall talk and the things that everyone in the house including my girlfriend would tell. I only ever experienced two really bizarre events in the half a year we lived there. One was a really bizarre sleep paralysis episode and the other was a just a weird little thing that happened, me and my girlfriend laugh about it now. which has to do with the whole haunted thing.

It was a month or two into staying with my girlfriends grandma. It was not a weird day or anything it was just normal nice day. My night went as usual playing video games and whatever. Through out the night I would toss and turn and it was weird because I would have those jump scares like in the dreams where you trip and you jump out of the sleep. I was having a lot of those, one after the other and I could swear for a split second that I saw black shadows zip across my vision and out of site, so much that I would try to follow it across the room but it was too quick. It was like I would question myself if I really saw it.  This went on for a couple of hours. Then while dreaming I started feeling an intense tingling feeling like I have described before all over my body. Then the dream I was having started to disintegrate like burn up. The best way I can describe it is, have you ever been watching a movie in the theater and the film on the screen looks like it burns and fades to white like the film rips. Thats what happening in front of my eyes. In the dream I was having I was flying or some shit and then all of a sudden it burned and tore revealing a blinding white light that enveloped me. It was hurting my eyes so I closed them. When I opened them I was back in the room we were sleeping in. I tried to roll over but I couldn't move. I tried yelling and nothing came out, I began to hold my breath to wake up and then the rooms door swung open really fast kind of startling me making me breath in really quick. 

Out of the door frame I see a pitch black head peak around the corner like if they were looking to see if I was there. Then it turns and looks back out out the door like if it was speaking to others. All of a sudden it walks in and following it was another 5 figures kind of marching in around me, it was difficult to distinguished the characteristics or bodily frames I could just see their arms, they were really thin and long. They scattered all around and surrounded me. I was on the edge of the bed with the drop off to my right. The figures to my left were sinking in the bed like dissolving into the bed like it wasn't even there. I looked up and they were all looming over me. I started feeling all tingly again and then I feel weightless. I started to feel a pit in my stomach like when you start going down on a roller coaster and you  feel just a bit nauseas. I realized that I was starting to kind of float off the bed, the ceiling was getting closer and  closer. I was slowly levitating, the figures heads were following me while I was going up, until my body was eye level to them. I stopped right above their heads and they slowly started to walk out but I stayed in the center of them the whole time. It was like if they were all holding me up each having a hand on my back but there were no out stretched arms, just floating there in thin air. 

They proceeded to, lets just carry me, since its seems a little better than saying I started to float away from the bed. They started to carry me out of the room and down the hallway, I turned and faced my girlfriends grandmas room and slowly I started to go towards it. When we approached I saw one of the figures thin creepy arm reach out and open the door. When we walked in I turned my head and saw her grandma laying in bed but she was laying with her head towards the end of the bed which I thought was weird, the tv was on and I could barely distinguish what was on. I kept moving forward and they slowly turned me away from the bed and I ended up facing her the glass closet door and I could see myself above these figures in mid air. One of them slowly put its out stretched hand on the glass its fingers spread, long and it looked like a hand made of twigs, intertwined and rough. It slid the closet door and all of a sudden I started to move upright I was at an angle facing the open darkness of the closet. It looked like a black gaping hole, endless and vast. Then they just threw me into it, it felt like I was gliding through the air in slow motion the pit in my stomach grew more than ever it took my breath away and it made me clench my whole body like if I was flexing without my own will. The darkness started taking me in like it was alive, from my feet going up like it was a presence itself, I had the strangest feeling that it wasn't empty this blackness was alive as it enveloped me. I couldn't see the parts of my body that were being I guess fucking eaten by the darkness. It all happened so fast, as soon as my head hit the darkness I yelled at the top of my lungs and I shot awake. I was sweating profusely, my pillow was damped and I was really nauseas. I ran to the bathroom and was gagging over the toilet, my head spinning. I did not know what the fuck just happened I just sat there in the bathroom floor kind of just zoned out. Trying to take it all in, everything at once. 

That day all I could think about were these events. I couldn't stop thinking about all these things. Well of course I needed tell someone so I told my girlfriend, she really didn't believe me or thought it was just a dumb dream until I told her about her grandmas sleeping positions and she just looked at me in a sort of stunned look. She told me that her grandma sleeps regularly like that, when she told me this every thing kind of went quiet. My body kind of went numb and  I didn't want to believe it. She asked me how I knew that, I insisted that I didn’t, I was just telling her how my sleep paralysis episode went. I promised her that I never went into her grandmas bedroom in the middle of the night while she slept just to see how she slept. Or for any other reason which she or I could not think of. After I told her this she did realize how silly me knowing this sounded and how weird it was that I actually described how she slept in real life.

I thought of everything and could not think of how I could possibly see what I saw. I tried every possible way of explaining this night, but of course I just went with the whole it was just another weird dream and left it at that. It is just a lot easier than trying to debunk it. 

It did take a while typing this because I had to stop and get my wits about me. While typing this I would feel like someone was watching me just a strong feeling of fear. I know  it doesn't make sense but I would feel really jumpy like someone was about to jump out and scare me or grab me. So much so that I would turn around fast and jumpy. Just knowing that someone was behind me. It would just become really uncomfortable thinking about these events and describing it, kind of reliving these moments. So sorry it took so long, please comment and share I love feedback. Thank you everyone you can message me on hangouts or KIK me at danny.alv.602